Right now, i’m sitting at home waiting for my family to finally drive me over to Sandra’s house. [we decided ahead of time that i'd sleep over at her place so it's more convenient for us to get to the airport together.]
Recently i’ve been pretty stressed out. [i know i'm not supposed to be, cuz imma teen and i haven't even entered the real world y6et so there is no way i could feel stressed. - but i've been pretty stressed out on my part.] my family has really been pissing me off lately, school just ended this week so that means i’ve been having finals, and just the whole juggling of responsibilities.
My parents, in truth, didnt’ want me to go to laos with this program. but sandra helped me convince them by telling them all the benefits so they finally gave in. even after they gave in though, they keep lecturing me and yelling at me for no apparent reason. maybe there’s some things at work stressing HEr out, but she’s really pissing me off. NO ONE wants to see eileen pissed off – my friends have already been hurt s they know. i’m usually pretty flexible so if something ticks me off, it really ticked me off. that means that same thing happened like a million times and no one bothered to do anything about it.
adding to my mom being a total nag, she’s also doesn’t understand the situation. there’s no communication between the two of us. i swear, i REALLY need to record EVERYTHING we say to each other because i tell her things and she keeps claiming i never did. and i always tell her about three times before going to bed.
ok, maybe i shoudl stop complaining and be more me – optimistic.
i should be excited, but it doesn’t even feel like i’m going yet, nevertheless it’s summer yet. i dont’ feel relaxed and laied-back in any particular way, and i dont’ feel overly nervous for the culture shock when i get there. it’s almost like i dont’ know how to feel. i’m sort of happy i’m goingt o a different place but have complex feelings about homesickness. i know i’ll miss my american lifestyle, but i doubt i’ll miss my family within these two months. i don’t know, it’s just weird.
as far as the packing is going along, i think i’ve pack more than i need cuz my mom keeps telling me to bring this, bring that. i’ve traveled with my family every summer to hong kong, china. if there’s anything i should know, it’s how to pack for summer vacation.
this is going to be the best trip i’ve had for years. the only concern i have is that my 8 gig usb memory stick might fill up the first week of staying becuas ei’m such a camera-whore…
and as of now, i’m still waiting for my parents to give me a ride to sandra’s…
i needa work on my power point…
and i gotta post this up…
i’ll miss my american lifestyle – but it’s going to be SO much fun these next two months.
i hope i don’t run out of room in my luggage…
